I have made the Nerdies finals!
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I really REALLY want the photo shoot with Jeanette and the years hosting would really come in handy now! PLEASE PLEASE!
Weekends come and weekends go – it is sad.
We spent 5 days waiting for those two days at the end of the week that allow us to relax, spend time with friends and if we are lucky sleep in.
It was my weekend with the kids. It had a very rocky start with Kiara fortunately by Sunday she seemed alot calmer and we had a lovely day at home playing board games (my seven year old kicked both mine and Davids backsides in Spiderman Monopoly), watching movies and my most awesome boyfriend let me have a nap while he kept an eye on the kids. Isn’t he just the most amazing thing 
We did a pilates and yoga class together on saturday and sunday. It was really fun to do them together and in the process I got two freaking hard work outs and am unable to move my limbs now. My entire body from my neck down is aching. But what do they say? No pain no gain hey.
I have forgotten the pin number to BOTH my debit card and my credit card. So this morning I put petrol in my car with coins my mom managed to scratch out of the bottom of her bag! Makes for a fun monday morning
I am feeling 20 billion times more focused and in control at the moment which I am really greatful for.
Hope you all have a super awesome week!
I have been hiding behind bullet point posts, my awesome boyfriend and my troubled child.
I am not hiding anymore.
The truth is I went to see a shrink yesterday. The truth is the shrink thinks I am depressed. The truth is I have been crying alot the last few weeks. The truth is I am not nice to be around right now. The truth is I am overwhelmed. The truth is the reason Kiara is troubled is because I am troubled – it is that simple, she could not be more in tune with whats going on in my head even if she was in my head. The truth is everything I do right now is a mission. The truth is I want to sleep for a long time.
The truth is I want to run away to a place where the streets have no name. Where I can eat cupcakes and lick the icing of my fingers, where I can feel the grass under my feet and the sun on my cheeks. A place where I can laugh and laugh. A place that knows no tears.
I want to gallop off, on a horse I can’t ride to a place that doesn’t exist.
Because the truth is I am not depressed. I refuse to be.
Yesterday a friend said to me something along the lines of “I don’t think it is possible for you to be depressed” (meant a lot Nicci) and she is right. I do not have it in. Yes I am going through a rough time – a very rough time but I have wallowed in self pity long enough now. I have cried my tears, yelled, snapped and been miserable.
Its over now!
We are working on why I suddenly feel like this – its not going to be an easy process because I suspect it is in routed in things I do not want to face never mind deal with.
But I refuse to allow this negativity to control me a single day longer. I refuse to allow it to effect my child a day longer.
Because the truth is I have faced worse and survived
The other evening I called Kiara to get ready to bath.
I was cooking and she walks into the kitchen and says “Is this all that life is?”
Confused I asked her what she meant.
She puts her hands out again and goes ‘Is this all that life is? Is it mom?”
I had no words. I wasn’t sure if I should worry or laugh.
What I DON’T miss about being single I was having a conversation with a new friend of mine and we were discussing nightlife in Joburg.
He is single and so still frequents many of the night spots Joburg has on offer. It got me thinking about how gross that whole single/clubbing/partying life can become.
I was never much of a clubber person but when you are single you do what you must to find a mate, so have on the odd occasion been seen in places like Billy the Bums.
The whole conversation made me very grateful that I am no longer single. David and I a very active social life but rarely go out to clubs or hot spots in Jozi. In fact I can’t remember the last time we did and I don’t miss it at all.
There are a few more things I really do not miss about being single.
I am not a huge fan of make up and accessories and the latest clothes but when you are heading out to potentially meet your sole mate you have to fake it. Put the lipstick on, squeeze your feet into the heels and teeter on your merry way, praying you don’t fall or get lipstick on your teeth or mascara on your eyelid.
The constant prowling you do when you are single is exhausting. Wherever (PnP has been known to have some cuties walking down its aisles) you go you quickly scan the crowd for a single dude. You start out looking for a cute one and after a few years you are willing to settle for one that has matching socks.
I hate crowds. I do not cope well being crammed into a small dark room with music so loud I think Afghanistan can dance with us. I cope even less with having to push my way through drunken retards who try to chat you up, pinch your bum, undress you with their eyes on your way to the bar.
First dates! I do not miss first dates at all. As nice as it is to meet new people, first dates are not fun. I remember thinking after date one with David “thank goodness that went well, at least I wont have to have a first date again”
As much fun as flirting is when you have to do it its not so much fun. Having to maintain polite conversation with a guy who can only talk about his bank balance can also get rather tedious.
I couldn’t really afford to be single. Spending R200 a night really was not in my budget. Drinks are always over priced and eating out was a nightmare because I could never choose the cheaper options like pizza or a burger.
I often felt hopeless when single. I would come back from a night our or a horrible date and feel hopeless. Not that I would never meet someone but just hopeless at the whole process.
I do not know what it is about people but when they hear you are single, they all but buy you a sympathy card and then when they hear I am a single mom, they start lighting candles and forming prayer groups! There really are worse things than being single!
I do not miss the invites to parties that say “I have invited Bobs brother, shame he is also single” or ” Don’t worry Em will also be there and she is single too”
All in all I really do not miss being single at all Being a plus one is a whole lote more fun.
I had this proper post in my head last night – it was about Valentines day but then woke up this morning and got on the hamster wheel of life and just wasn’t in the mood for red hearts and teddy bears.
But I will say this – if one person dare give me the fucking red heart shaped chocolate they got at the robot on the way to work this AGAIN this Valentines day I swear I WILL be cancelling all future Valentines Days – I AM this powerful!
Anyway I am instead going to share with you a little conversation I had with my daughter (This one is just for your TC)
Kiara: My teacher has moved my friend away from me.
Me: Why?
Kiara: Because we talk too much.
Me: Oh no Kiara. Thats not good. So do you know sit by yourself?
Kiara: Yes. But don’t worry mom. There are two boys in front of me and one on the other side that I can still talk to.
Now, while I welcome comments, if you dare say “ah so cute” or post a smiley face. I promise you before you can say cute, you will find a 5 year old standing on your doorstep with her bags!
It is not cute. It is not funny. It is exhausting. She refuses to acknowledge she was wrong. She knows she is wrong but will not admit it and therefore will not correct it.
I dragged myself to gym this morning purely because I wanted to weigh myself – I am almost a kg down from last week Which means I am 2 kg down from when I got back from Cape Town. Eventhough I still seem to have this aweful tyre around my middle, I am much happier that I am no longer weighing THAT number.
We have 9 prams so far – which really is so phenomenally awesome. Thank you to everyone who has donated.
I have received some lovely nominations for our Phenomenal Women competition. If you haven’t entered yet, please go now!
Also have to say how exceptionally proud of my friend Tanya I am.
Imagine being tuesday! Noone likes tuesday. In fact noone actually cares about tuesday at all.
We all hate monday (except me after a hectic weekend with kids – then I love monday)
Wednesday marks the middle of the week.
Thursday is the day before Friday so by default people are fairly fond of thursdays.
Friday is well Friday.
Saturday is party day and is well liked by many people.
Sundays are love/hate days. On crazy weekends I love them, on awesome weekends I hate them.
But poor old tuesday – he just is. Shame!
My daughter got into trouble at school yesterday, it appears she may actually have gotten a demerit. I can’t tell you how excited I am about having a kid who is sprinting towards having behavioural problems at school. We are soldiering on though. I am really hoping the play therapist will be able to help and guide me a little.
Cameron is a model child. He swims, he gets stars in his homework book, he reads, he helps me, he tolerates his sister climbing on him while he is trying to watch TV, he reminds me of things I need to do. He makes my life alot easier.
David is somewhere between behaving and misbehaving :-p Just kidding!!! He is pretty awesome too. I have not been the easiest person to be around at all the last few weeks and he just smiles and tells me he loves me.
UNISA second year BA Communication is not a walk in the park. I am loving the content of my subjects but am really not feeling the whole 60/90 mark question thing. Its stressing me out somewhat.
F2F has just launched a project called Collect-a-Pram - please help out if you can.
I went to gym this morning and think the cast of that reality show was there – you know the one where the anorexics have to eat what the obese people eat and vice versa. There was a whole bunch of sickly thin people cycling/running/stepping next to a whole bunch of obese people.
This is one of those shameless posts – much the same as those shameless emails I sent you a while ago :-p
But anyway I have made the semi-finals of the Nerdies 2010.
I need your votes now – PLEASE.
All you have to do is leave a comment here saying you vote for me.
We had a rather busy weekend this past weekend.
1. Last beverage? Water
2. Last phone call? David
3. Last kiss? Proper one Wednesday night but a kiddy one this morning
4. Last song you listened to? Run to the Water – Live
5. Last time you cried? I am crying pretty much everyday at the moment.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? Yes
7. Been cheated on? Not that I know off
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Yes
9. Lost someone special? Yes
10. Been depressed? Yes .
11. Been high?
No LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Pink
13. Blue
14. Red
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Have you made new friends this year? Not yet this year
16. Fallen out of love? No
17. Laughed until you cried? Yes
18. Met someone who changed you? Yes – I met him last year but he keeps changing me (for the better) every day
19. Found out who your true friends were? Nope – I went through all that a few years ago. They ones I have now are here to stay?
20. Found out someone was talking about you? David talks about me all the time :-p
21. Kissed anyone on your top friends list? Well David is top on my friend list so yes
TRUTH:
23. How many kids do you want to have? 2
24. Do you have any pets? No – I am forced to co-habit with 2 German Shephards though
25. Do you want to change your name? No
26. What did you do for your last birthday? Drinks at Cool Runnings Fourways
27. What time did you wake up today ? 4h30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping (or sorting Kiara out – I rarely check the time in the middle of the night)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? My birthday – I wont be able to do the big party I wanted but I still do so love my birthday.
30. Last time you saw your father? This morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? My living arrangements
32. What are you listening to right now ? Live
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes at a bloggirls/tweet up last year.
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? Pretty much everything (is one of those days)
36. What’s your real name? Laura-kim
37. Relationship Status? I am spoken for
38. Zodiac sign? Aries
39. Male or female? Female
40.Primary School? Sarnia Primary
41. High School? Pinetown Girls High
43. Hair color? Brown
44. Long or short? In the middle
45. Height ?1,68cm – I think. I ALWAYS have to ask Ansie this
46. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes – my boyfriend.
47. What do you like about yourself? My legs
48. Piercings? Ears
49. Tattoos? Nope
50. Righty or lefty? Righty
FIRSTS :
51. First surgery? Hips – 9 months
52. First piercing? I cant remember – 10/11 maybe
53. First tattoo?
54. First best friend? Tessa
55. First Sport? Swimming
56. First pet? Cat
57. First vacation? The first one I can remember was to South West Africa
58. First concert ? I have NEVER been to a concert
59. First crush? His name was Greg – I was 10
60. First alcohol drink? Red wine
RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating? Rice cakes (jealous much???)
62. Drinking? Water
63. I’m about to? Work
64. Listening to? The wind blowing
65. Waiting for? Tonight when I get to see my very special significant other
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OTHER SEX?
69. Lips or eyes? Eyes
70. Hugs or kisses? Kisses
71. Shorter or taller? Tall
72. Older or Younger? Younger :-p
73. Romantic or spontaneous? Spontaneous
74. Nice stomach or nice arms? Arms without a doubt
75. Tattoos or piercings? Neither
76. Sensitive or loud? Sensitive
77. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant ? If I have to choose – hesitant. At lean then when he has made the decision I will know he is sure.
HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger? No
80. Drank hard liquor? Yes
81. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
82. Cried in front of someone? Yes
83. Broken someone’s heart ? Yes
84. Had your own heart broken? Yes – or maybe not. I had a skewed idea of what love was so I thought at the time my heart was breaking – I don’t think it was.
85. Been arrested? No
86. Turned someone down? Yes
87. Cried when someone died? Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? Maybe
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? Most of the time.
90. Miracles? Yes
91. Love at first sight? Yes
92. Heaven? Maybe
93. Santa Clause? YES
94. Kissing on the first date? Yes – it helps decide on date two.
95. Angels? Yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes – David
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Maybe
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? I do yes
99. What’s the one thing you cannot live without? David
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yes
