The fish is dead!

On Saturday when I got home from dropping Cameron at a party I wanted to quickly clean the fish. As I went to pick the bowl up I noticed that Sushi was floating belly up in the bowl.

I wanted to cry. I felt so desperately horrible. I know goldfish die but I felt like I had killed the poor fish.

We did not look after her as well as we should have. Despite the kids being tasked to feed her daily – whoever is on duty that day was supposed to feed her – she wasn’t fed every day – not even every second day if I am honest. I would pop food in when I remembered. Her bowl wasn’t cleaned out often enough.

Basically the SPCA or the animal welfare or Green Peace would have us all locked up for the way we treated her and it makes me angry and so sad.

I am still transitioning from being at home for 7 months to now being back at work full time. My afternoons are getting calmer but when an OT appointment moves or people walk into the shop 5 min before I need to leave it can cause much chaos for the afternoon.

Both kids need help with homework in the afternoons – even after doing there basic homework at after care. Jack wants ME and we all do need to eat at some point in the evening.

So it leaves me feeling slightly spread too thin.

Add to that the puppy, the hamster, the bird and the goldfish and well it was only a matter of time before we had a casualty and I am just glad it was the fish (yes I realise how ugly that sounds).

I tweeted on Saturday “this is why I did not want a dog yet because I am cleaning poop cos the kids think its too gross” – someone replied that this was a self fulfilling prophecy and my reply was “No its not – I know my kids and they weren’t ready for this”. Raising a puppy is often likened to raising a child – how many of us expect a 7 year old to care for a 6 week old baby? (JUST SAYING)

Anyway I had very clear resentment for the puppy. It’s hard work cleaning up after her in the morning (she is in a small closed off area covered with newspaper) and teacher her that Jack isn’t a chew toy and neither is the bin.

But she is hear to stay and she makes my daughter insanely happy and is, I will admit, unrivaled in her cuteness. So I am sucking it up and doing what it takes to keep her happy and healthy. And of course will make sure the hamster and bird are just as happy and healthy.

So Sushi I am sorry your time with us was short. I hope you are happy wherever you are.